And I mean it! I was set up on a blind date earlier this evening, and I officially don't like my friend anymore. Well, I do, but he's getting a scolding when I get my hands on him. And maybe punch him real good once or twice, or six times.
They guy I was set up with, wasn't a terrible guy. He wasn't a bad looker either. But, people, the man is 36. I'm turning 22 this year. When I was born, this guy was hitting puberty and probably screwing fellow freshmen in his high school. The guy is actually old enough to be my father. Its possible. He's never been married, which isn't a terribly big deal. If he has a kid now, he'll be 40 when the kid hit preschool. For all we know, he could have a heart attack and die when the kid is in 3rd grade.
He's someone my friend knows from work, and the job pays well, I'm sure. He seems nice and all, but I don't think we're on the same level. We talked a lot after we had dinner, well he mostly talked.... about his job... which I know a lot about since my friend also talks about the job. So it was a series of repeats for me, but I was nice and polite. My mum would have been proud. I smiled, because I do find the field interesting, its in the engineering genre(I know I'm a nerd).
HE asked a lot about me, and told me I was pretty and seemed to be a great person.... repetitively. Which is fine, most people do that on a first date because of the unsettled nerves of meeting someone new. Personally, my nerves aren't allowed to interfere if they are going to be a problem.My ex said I was heartless and cold because of that kind of control I have of myself. >shrug< It probably seems that way, but I can't help it, just how I am and people ought to be themselves. I won't change to make just anyone happy, especially if its at the cost of my own.
I digress....(I tend to do that...)
Anyway, they guy was behaved most of the time, he wasn't crude and had a good joke every so often. I was polite and contributed as much as he would let me. But when the subject turned to my religion(my friend had mentioned to him a list of rules on how to talk to a mormon girl), it let me know how much he actually wanted me to talk. Also explained why he seemed to be on eggshells around me, like I'm a delicate flower that cannot handle the word "ass" or "damn". >shrug< Don't want me to see you for who you really are, then how do you know if I can like you? Can't keep the act up forever, so why try? Granted a certain educate is appreciated and needed for first time meetings, but jeeze, relax, will ya. The poor guy was always pausing as if to erase a thought to fill it in with something more "appropriate" for my ears.
So, when he asked about my religion, I would answer or explain. But then I was actually shocked when he would stop me, and tell me I didn't have to go into that much detail. Sweetheart, I only said three words before you started interrupting me. So it became clear, he wasn't really interested. Which is fine, its not everyone's cup of tea. Just don't ask if you don't want the answer. I ended up telling him I didn't want to talk about religion. So... he went on about his job...
And the poor guy was so tense. I'm an easy going person and I want others to feel relaxed around me. You tense up and that only tells me that I should, too. Its a natural survival instinct we humans have. Anyway, I did tell him to relax a couple times, but he didn't, so I just let him stress himself out over nothing. By the end of it, he wanted to kiss me. I'm sorry, I may be very old fashioned about this, but I like knowing the feel of people before I go off and kiss someone. Don't just kiss the girl, especially in mid-sentence. I was ready for it though and moved to the side. He grazed my cheek instead, I wouldn't do that to someone. Its rude. Not good to do to someone you really don't know anything about. Isn't like you're going to get lucky if you think you're being romantic or cute or something.
Enough about that. Its off my chest, and his awkward behavior isn't bugging me anymore. I've managed not to care, because its not a big deal. Other fish out there and I still have time, I guess. :)
Hope you're having it better than I! Get ready for Halloween! I'm so excited! :D Ciao!
Marnée aka Jade
